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For five minutes the other day I was a first time father
All the joys and agonies of a young new life weighed upon my shoulders
For 5 minutes I could behold the future and it looked bright
All the things I would teach them, the wisdom I would pass along
Boy or girl, it did not matter, I would be happy with whatever the fates chose to bless me with
Little baby 1 cm long visible on the ultrasound screen.
I had so many plans for you, even though the world it be a scary place,
But for you I would tread the dangerous waters to make it what more safe I can.
For five minutes I was the happiest man I had ever been.
It seemed like 5 minutes anyways, all the thoughts that passed through my head.
In reality it couldn't have been much over 30 seconds, before the ultrasound technician said
"Hmm that's odd, your baby has no heart beat"
This sums up my last weekend and most of this week. My wife and I thought we were going to be expecting a new arrival soon, but it didn't work out for us. She has a miscarriage last Saturday morning. I've been going about my normal routine and trying to be strong and supportive for her, as she took it pretty tough both physically and emotionally. I still have my emotional guards up about the whole thing myself, just kinda my defense mechanism in dealing with it all.
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mskbax Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
Thank you for sharing this with me. I love you.
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Luvu2
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candysamuels Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:( sorry to hear that honey..
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
aww thank you, I'm doing ok, it was pretty tough on my wife, but we seem to be doing better now.
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candysamuels Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
its very hard, been there with my daughter..her baby was still born..that sucked..he was three weeks before delivery..very hard time.you will get through this..
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww I'm sorry to hear that. At least we weren't too far along yet, I have a feeling that would have been really tough on the mrs.
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candysamuels Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
yes and it will happen a gain and be successful..
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:)
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Guard-of-the-Citadel Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012   Photographer
My heart goes out to you and your wife......you are in my thoughts! And, it's okay.....big boys DO cry!
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you kindly, we are muddling through, and will make it through stronger in the end.
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Guard-of-the-Citadel Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012   Photographer
True...so true....heartbreak is not easy....my mother lost her first baby at 6 months....
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sad to hear that. We were only a few months along, but I'm sure it gets harder the farther along you are.
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Guard-of-the-Citadel Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2012   Photographer
Yes, that is true. But the pain is real no matter how far along and the grief is deep. Take time to heal, my friend! :hug:
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ShinyHeels Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I am so so sorry to hear this:hug:
i hope strenght to both of you:hug:
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Awww thank you :hug:
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ShinyHeels Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug:
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PicturOnTheDashboard Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm so sorry. There's nothing that can make anyone feel better in this kind of situation, but remember the fact that there are always going to be people around to help you deal. Again, I'm so sorry and I hope that you guys can get through such a tragic time.
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you, its healing process and takes some time. I have to admit, I didn't realize how many people have gone through this at some point in their life as well, it's kind of surprising, but we have recieved lots of well wishes and support.
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PicturOnTheDashboard Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
It really is surprising how many people go through it and a lot of people don't realize it. I'm sure you are in many prayers :)
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah it's kinda one of those things a lot of people don't know how to talk about I think. Thank you again for your kind words!
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PicturOnTheDashboard Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
I agree. And I'm glad to help.
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:)
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ArachnoWolf Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Damn dude :hug: to both you and your wife. For the record, if that's what the the technician said I probably would have slapped him :| I mean, I'm all for bluntness, but fuck! That's just...wrong.
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
To her benefit, after she blurted that out, she said OMg I'm so sorry for you guys, so I don't hold her any ill will.
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ArachnoWolf Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh okay.

:hug:
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug:
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LilRedWagon Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012
MRCBAX: SO SAD to hear the above .... ~SIGHS~ ....

When things like this 'happen', all this OLD man has learned is that it/they are "Over HIS pay grade'' .... MORE ~SIGHS~ ....

My BEST to you and yours, KIND SOUL .... LilRedWagon/LRW.
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you kindly, we are muddling through as best we can.
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SwirlllGirlll Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012
I'm soooo sorry to hear this has happened :(
I will pray for you both :heart:
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you kindly, we are coping, and starting to feel better now, but it's been one heck of a week!
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SwirlllGirlll Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012
I bet it has :( I know she doesn't know me but give your wife a little hug from me!
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
She says thank you very much.
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SwirlllGirlll Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012
She's welcome, hope she's feeling ok.
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mrcbax Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
She kinda took it easy this weekend, going to go back to work tomorrow. I've been catching up most of the house chores, but whew! that's a lot of work!
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SwirlllGirlll Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2012
I bet it was a lot of work! I'm sure she appreciates it a lot! I'm glad she rested :)
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