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For five minutes the other day I was a first time father
All the joys and agonies of a young new life weighed upon my shoulders
For 5 minutes I could behold the future and it looked bright
All the things I would teach them, the wisdom I would pass along
Boy or girl, it did not matter, I would be happy with whatever the fates chose to bless me with
Little baby 1 cm long visible on the ultrasound screen.
I had so many plans for you, even though the world it be a scary place,
But for you I would tread the dangerous waters to make it what more safe I can.
For five minutes I was the happiest man I had ever been.
It seemed like 5 minutes anyways, all the thoughts that passed through my head.
In reality it couldn't have been much over 30 seconds, before the ultrasound technician said
"Hmm that's odd, your baby has no heart beat"
This sums up my last weekend and most of this week. My wife and I thought we were going to be expecting a new arrival soon, but it didn't work out for us. She has a miscarriage last Saturday morning. I've been going about my normal routine and trying to be strong and supportive for her, as she took it pretty tough both physically and emotionally. I still have my emotional guards up about the whole thing myself, just kinda my defense mechanism in dealing with it all.
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Thank you for sharing this with me. I love you.
mrcbax Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
candysamuels Sep 4, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:( sorry to hear that honey..
mrcbax Sep 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
aww thank you, I'm doing ok, it was pretty tough on my wife, but we seem to be doing better now.
candysamuels Sep 5, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
its very hard, been there with my daughter..her baby was still born..that sucked..he was three weeks before delivery..very hard will get through this..
mrcbax Sep 6, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww I'm sorry to hear that. At least we weren't too far along yet, I have a feeling that would have been really tough on the mrs.
candysamuels Sep 6, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
yes and it will happen a gain and be successful..
mrcbax Sep 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
My heart goes out to you and your are in my thoughts! And, it's okay.....big boys DO cry!
mrcbax Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you kindly, we are muddling through, and will make it through stronger in the end.
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